Metro Blye: Hey Clark, quick question, have you seen Lois?
AConfu: Not in the last few days.
Metro Blye: Ok now I'm officially worried.
AConfu: Why, has she disappeared or something?
Metro Blye: Kind of. Last time I talked to her she was at the Planet and she hasn't come home yet and that's been a few hours. Her cell is off and they said she left the office a while ago.
AConfu: That doesn't sound great. Uh, want me to walk over there and check it out?
Metro Blye: Not yet, besides that I can do. Anyway it'd probably just me worrying too much, she mentioned a guy from work so she might be out with him, even if from her description that sounds unlikely.
AConfu: Wouldn't she have said something to you, though?
Metro Blye: Maybe, maybe not. Apparently she already went out with this guy and didn't tell me so that could have happened again, although she mentioned he was bad in bed so I'm thinking that might not be it.
Metro Blye: Clark? Still with me?
AConfu: Yeah, still here.
Metro Blye: You weren't drinking anything and I mentioned sex and you chocked and/or spit everything on your computer screen, right?
AConfu: Please, Chloe. I'm not *that* repressed.
Metro Blye: If you say so. But it has happened before, so don't blame me for asking.
AConfu: When I was less mature.
Metro Blye: *sighs* sorry Clark.. I'm kinda worried about her. She's a big girl and I shouldn't be worrying but you know as well as I do weird things can happen.
AConfu: Yeah, I know. *hugs*
Metro Blye: *hugs* thanks. Anyway, how is my favorite farmboy?
Metro Blye: Just okay?
Metro Blye: What's wrong?
AConfu: Nothing, just....I saw Lex earlier.
Metro Blye: Oh, was it bad?
AConfu: Actually, no, surprisingly good.
Metro Blye: So things are better between you two?
AConfu: At least starting to be.
Metro Blye: That's great, Clark. You should be happy.
AConfu: I am. But it was....different.
Metro Blye: Why is that?
AConfu: I don't know exactly...
Metro Blye: But it was good different, right?
AConfu: I'm not sure, but I think so.
Metro Blye: It's normal for things to be weird, Clark. You guys were friends for years, then you entered an awkward phase and are just now starting to make things better. It surely changed both of you and it'll be a while before you get used to things again.
AConfu: When did you get so wise?
Metro Blye: Well I like to think it happened the day I was born. *g* But I went through a lot of awkward phases with a certain friend of mine so I had time to think of this.
AConfu: Point taken.
Metro Blye: Seriously Clark, you'll be fine. I think you're the only person Lex trusts (or at least trusted recently). He mustn’t be eager to end this friendship.
AConfu: Neither am I, Chloe.
Metro Blye: I know that, so if you two want to maintain this friendship, you will. Stop worrying.
Metro Blye: That's not the only thing bothering you, is it?
AConfu: I'm kind of worried about Lois, after what you said.
Metro Blye: Yeah I'm trying not to obsess about it. I just hope Uncle Sam doesn't call and asks where she is...
AConfu: Ouch. Not good if he does.
Metro Blye: No and I swear the guy has a lie detector connected to his phone line.
AConfu: Oh, dear.
Metro Blye: Oh dear? Clark, have you been talking to your mom?
AConfu: How'd you know?
Metro Blye: That's something Martha would say. And I suggest you don't use that expression around Wally or Pete.
Metro Blye: Clark? Did you talk to Wally lately?
AConfu: Wally? No, he was asleep last time I was home the same time he was and not sleeping myself.
Metro Blye: Hm, okay.
AConfu: Our schedules are so weird.
Metro Blye: They are, but it's not too bad.
AConfu: No, but I barely see the people I'm living in the same place as. That's weird.
Metro Blye: You're all on different majors, the schedules had to be very different.
Metro Blye: You know, you're completely monosyllabic on me, want me to leave you alone?
AConfu: No, just....not feeling totally here, for some reason. It's not you.
Metro Blye: I know it's not me. I'm not that self-centered; I'm just giving you an out.
AConfu: I don't want one, but I appreciate the offer.
Metro Blye: I'd say anytime but you'd use that against me.
Metro Blye: Not even if I were bugging you to say something you didn't wanna tell me?
AConfu: It would depend on how much I didn't want to tell you.
Metro Blye: Ha you see? So you would use it against me, Kent.
AConfu: Okay, maybe I would a little.
Metro Blye: Really glad I didn't say it now.
AConfu: Say what?
Metro Blye: Nevermind, you are lost in that confused head of yours...
AConfu: Who me?
Metro Blye: No, me, Clark.
AConfu: You always do manage to cheer me up.
Metro Blye: Glad it still works. Few can resist a Sullivan anyway... *g*
AConfu: Very true *nods* Gabe can be very charming.
Metro Blye: I thought I did catch you looking at his ass a few times…
Metro Blye: Okay I can't do this. Speaking of my dad's ass as an object of desire is just wrong.
AConfu: It so is. And I didn't even mean it that way.
Metro Blye: You said charming, what did you expect from me?
AConfu: It. Was. A. Joke.
Metro Blye: Hm... You mean you're guilty of what I said? I mean if you didn't get I was also joking.
AConfu: Probably, but yours was Wrong. More than mine *nods*
Metro Blye: Not my fault you're a prude, Clark.
AConfu: I. Am. Not. A. Prude.
Metro Blye: You're freaking because I said you checked someone's ass. You are a prude.
AConfu: Not someone. Your father. How would you feel if I said the same about you?
Metro Blye: Not into the whole incestuous thing, Clark.
AConfu: Er. With my father or mother.
Metro Blye: Not into the whole incestuous thing, Clark. Oh in that case, I'd just say I'll pass.
AConfu: Let's change the subject?
Metro Blye: Please.
Metro Blye: What do you wanna talk about?
AConfu: Sure, put the conversation on me *g* Um. Oh, have you seen Steve lately? He might actually let me cover a sorority dinner before graduation, you know.
Metro Blye: He might? You know who your partner will be right?
AConfu: Of course!
Metro Blye: You say some other name and I swear I'll smack you! *smiles sweetly*
Metro Blye: And no I haven't heard from him at all during the break, thank god.
AConfu: I meant you. Don't worry.
Metro Blye: Just making sure *g*. You know my hate/hate relationship with Steve, he never gives me the good stuff.
AConfu: You think he gives it to me?
Metro Blye: At least you like sports.
AConfu: And wow did that sound wrong.
Metro Blye: OMG Clark Kent noticed subtext I didn't!
Metro Blye: Its the apocalypse, nice knowing you Clark.
AConfu: I'm not totally unaware.
Metro Blye: I'm impressed and strangely proud.
AConfu: Osmosis from hanging out with you so long, probably.
Metro Blye: Glad you give me proper credit.
AConfu: I'd never deny you credit, Chloe.
Metro Blye: I know you wouldn't Clark. Except when we do something bad, then you can.
AConfu: Of course.
AConfu: I'll take the heat.
Metro Blye: You're bigger than I am, besides there is the hero complex I don't share.
AConfu: You're one of the bravest people I know.
Metro Blye: Thanks, but where did that come from?
AConfu: Just some thinking I was doing.
Metro Blye: What did that thinking involve?
AConfu: Did you ever hear the song If Tomorrow Never Comes? It doesn't matter if you didn't, it's about hoping that the people you love will know how much you love them if something were to happen to you. And. I just felt like I should say that.
Metro Blye: I love you too Clark, but now you're scaring me. What's going on?
AConfu: Nothing, it just came out. It's weird. I'm not sure where it came from.
Metro Blye: Are you sure it's just random? No dark clouds over your head?
AConfu: I was thinking a little about Whitney. I think that's where it came from.
AConfu: And my dad, too.
Metro Blye: Oh ok, do you wanna talk about it?
AConfu: It's just that I was glad that I got to tell them both. Nothing very profound.
Metro Blye: Well it's a good thing you did, I don't know about Whitney but I'm sure they both knew.
AConfu: He did. Four years, Chloe.
Metro Blye: You didn't tell me it lasted that long.
AConfu: No, it's been four years. Since...
Metro Blye: Oh… oh. Sorry Clark. Hey, want me to come over?
AConfu: Yeah, if you want. And please note, I'm being offhanded so as not to show you how much I do want you to.
Metro Blye: I'll be there in 20 minutes tops. Any speeding tickets will be sent to your address. *hugs*
Metro Blye: Metro Blye is away
Chloe scribbled Lois a note that said "Am at Clark's, please call the cell when you see this. Worried about you, C." And rushed out of her apartment. About 10 minutes later (no traffic this time of the night) she was parking her car on the closest parking space she could find to the boy's dorm. Chloe went upstairs and knocked on their dorm's door.
Clark opened the door. "Hey, Chloe. Thanks." He doesn't have to say what for.
"Hey" She smiled at him and without hesitation gave him a hug, after pulling back a little she looked up, "I'd have brought ice cream but we didn't have any left."
"Thanks for the offer," Clark smiled, faintly.
Nodding in reply, she grabbed his hand and pulled him into the apartment again, shutting the door. Then Chloe proceeded to the couch, still dragging Clark with her, "Are you home alone?"
"Yeah, I have no idea where Pete and Wally are," Clark shook his head. "I should know better than to start thinking....it always gets me in trouble."
She adjusted her position on the couch and rubbed Clark's arm, trying to give him some comfort, "It's good to talk about it, Clark. Let things out."
"Yeah," Clark said. "So much was hidden...."
"It can't have been easy for you. Were you still together when he left?"
"No," Clark said. "Do you remember when he and Lana broke up for a while?"
Chloe nodded, "Yeah"
"That was when...." Clark sighed. "No, he didn't break up with her for me, it was after..."
She held back not to ask why they had broken up, it wasn't the time... So she just nodded instead, "How long were you together?"
"A couple of months," Clark shivered. "He loved Lana. I couldn't stand in the way of that."
She grasped on of his hands and squeezed it lightly, "What matters, Clark was that you told him you loved him. That's what counts and you were happy while it lasted."
"I know," Clark nodded. "And we were. I just....you know Lana had no idea?"
Nodding again Chloe gave him a small smile, "Yeah, she told me. I think no one suspected."
"It wasn't long enough to get into the prospect of people finding out,” Clark said. "But I would have told you. If it had."
"I'm glad to hear that, Clark and I'm sorry you couldn't enjoy it for longer."
"It was more than I ever thought I would have," Clark said. "At least it was more than a lot of pain...."
Chloe placed her other hand on top of his as well and held it between both of hers, "You know, I think it was really brave of you to take a chance like that. A relationship like that would be already complicated, added the fact that it was with Whitney... Took a lot of courage. And it's good you can talk about it without any bitterness for it ending, it's something that meant a lot for you and just shows how strong you are."
"You know, I don't think we even thought of it," Clark smiled. "It was just. Us. We got past....what we needed to, and it was just....so easy."
Chloe smiled back at him, "Sounds good, Clark. And the way you talk, I don't think Lana was the one he loved, at least not only her."
"Nor me," Clark said. "I can't believe I just said that aloud...."
"It's okay. If it just seemed so right and happened as naturally as you said, trust me there were more feelings there than you think." She smiled again, "And your secret is safe with me."
"I know it is. It was right, and natural," Clark grinned, just a little.
She smiled at him, "I'm glad you could have that."
"Sometimes I wonder if it would have stayed the same - I mean, not that changes won't happen, but if people had known, if it would have been different," Clark thought of the times they'd hidden in plain sight and how amazing that had been. "I wonder how my father would have taken it..."
Chloe nodded, "honestly?" She said looking up to his face, "I don't think it'd have been easy for you, being Smallville and all. And as for your dad? I think he wouldn't know how o take it first but would eventually accept it, Clark."
"I think you're right on both counts," Clark smiled and looked at Chloe, suddenly thinking of how often they'd talked and he'd never been able to say anything. Not only this, but so many other things. Some of it seems so unimportant now, and some of it he's still keeping, because he feels he has to, at least for now.
She returned the smile before looking down at her hands, still over his, for a moment and looked up at him again, "You seem so okay talking about him, about both of them actually..." She trailed off looking down at their hands again and wondering mostly how it felt to really lose a parent, 15 years had passed for her and she still couldn't think about it without getting confused, to say the least.
"I have great memories of them, I feel like I'd be denying a part of myself if I couldn't talk about them. Yeah, there are times it's hard, and times I feel devastated that he's gone, but..." he thought of his other father, the one who's more distant and was lost even longer ago for all practical reasons. "And my mom, well, she's just. My mom, and I like talking about her."
Nodding, she gave him a half smile, "We all like talking about your mom, she is just great. She was like everyone's mom back in Smallville. I think I was more afraid of getting lectured by her than I ever was of..." Unconsciously, Chloe let go of his hand and adjusted her position on the couch. "you know, Erin." She said, glancing at Clark with the same half smile and then down to her nails.
"She was like that," Clark nodded. "Still is, really, but it's different now. She's sadder. I mean, we know why, but...." he wondered if he should bring this up. "Do you still think about your mom, wonder if she might..." he trails off, not sure what to say.
Chloe nodded without looking up, "I always have dreams with her, you know, those dreams..." She trailed of, waving her hand. "It happened again last night and they always feel so real." As she spoke, she pulled both her legs on the couch and stopped herself before hugging her knees to bring them closer, instead she crossed them on top of it. "Sometimes I wonder if it'd just be better if I went to see her..."
"I'm sorry," Clark said, putting a hand over Chloe's. "If you decided to, and you need someone to drive you, let me know?"
She smiled at him "Thanks Clark, I probably won't though." holding his hand she continue, "Did you ever talk to your mom about moving here?"
"She's still thinking about it," Clark said. "I think a part of her is scared that she'll get sucked back into her old life, and forget the changes. I know she couldn't, but I don't know if she knows."
"Maybe it could help if you at least convinced her to spend a few weekends here? Your mom is a city girl at heart." She smiled, "I know if she could get used to the city again, she wouldn't wanna go back to Smallville."
"I can try, that might be an idea," Clark nodded. "She has been talking about coming up to see me. I'll just have to persuade her."
"Yeah and when she’s around we can take her and dad to dinner with us. I'm sure he'll talk a lot about how much better being here is... and something about it being easier to check on me." Chloe rolled her eyes dramatically then smiled at Clark.
"Yeah, I'm sure that's a big part of it," Clark teased. "Must be able to keep an eye on wayward college-age child."
"I swear, we'll be fifty and they'll still treat us like that." Chloe said shaking her head and leaning back against the couch.
Clark nodded. "I've always felt that they treated me as they did when I first came to them. It never really changed." Not that that's a bad thing, he added to himself.
"They're parents. I think they're all like that and tend to only get worst." She shrugged, "I'm not entirely sure it's a bad thing."
"It's not, always," Clark agreed. "I think even sometimes when we think it's bad, it isn't. It's just that we couldn't see it at the time."
Chloe frowned at Clark, "Now when did you get so wise?"
"When I figured out that it wasn't all about stopping me from doing what I wanted, but that there were reasons for the restrictions and worry our parents put on us. It just became really clear a couple of years ago."
"Yeah, I could never really complain about dad, especially after moving to Smallville when he got even busier with work, I could pretty much do whatever I wanted." She smiled, "But you know that."
"I remember, very well," Clark nods. "You were always up to *something.*"
"Now don't incriminate me alone, Kent." She said, poking his chest, "You were my partner in crime on most occasions."
"I didn't say I wasn't," Clark protested, laughing. "I think we were pretty jointly responsible, though I do think your nosiness was a little more...."
"My nosiness was more what, Mr. Kent?"
"Responsible," Clark says, seriously, but his eyes are twinkling.
"Okay" Chloe nodded, pretending she believed, "Now you wanna tell me what you were really gonna say?"
"Blatant," Clark says, figuring he can be honest about that.
Chloe nodded, "I guess it was the one thing about me I could never really hide..." She paused, "Not that I'm good about hiding things..."
"Some things you are," Clark replied. "It just depends on how important the hiding is."
"Yeah I guess you're right." She smiled and suddenly the memory of a very different Clark came to her head, she turned her body around, "Can I ask you something?"
"Of course. Anything you want," he hoped his nervousness wasn't showing.
Chloe grinned briefly before asking, "You remember that summer you spent here in Metropolis?"
"Very well," Clark said, his tone very bitter and sad. That wasn't a time he liked to think about, at all, if he could help it.
"I never believed in Clark Kent doing drugs but..." She trailed off and paused for a second before deciding to continue, "But the way you were acting, Clark, you scared the hell out of me."
"I'm sorry," Clark said, sincerely. "It was a time I used something I never want near me again. Something that...changes me in ways I don't like."
Chloe shook her head, "You don't have to apologize, it was a long time ago." She smiled and squeezed his hand, "I'm glad you won't ever go near that again, it's a side of Clark I don't really like." She said, deciding that dropping the subject was the only choice when it came to Clark.
"Never, not knowingly," Clark says and squeezes Chloe's hand back. "I promise.”
"Good," She smiled and leaned back against the couch lazily.
"Pain makes us do strange things," Clark says, being more general than the summer.
Chloe nodded, "Including a pact with the devil."
Clark winced. "I remember. I just would never have...."
"Would never have what?" She asked, straightening her head to look at him.
"Hurt you that way,” Clark said. "If I'd known you were there, or...maybe I'd have told you. I don't know."
"Clark if I have to blame anyone, it’s myself. I went to him knowing I was getting in trouble, I chose to make a bad decision..." She looked at him, "I never blamed you, not even back then."
"I felt the guilt whether you blamed me or not," Clark said. "It felt like I'd done something I shouldn't."
"I know and I'm sorry I ever made you feel that way, I had no right to. You were never my boyfriend, hell we didn't even make a full date..." She smirked, hopefully letting he know she was over what had happened.
"I always regretted that a little. That we never made a full date. Just to see what it was like, you know?" Clark smiled back, letting her know he got it.
"I don't think it'd ever work out. We were always too close and despite the feelings, there was no sexual tension." Chloe grinned, "We'd make a boring couple."
"We really would have," Clark nodded. "I always thought there were moments, but that's all they were, you know?"
She nodded, "Yeah but I think mostly I was confused by my feelings for you."
"And I was confused by just about everything at the time."
"Clark?" She said grinning at him, "you still are."
He grinned and nodded. "Some things never change."
She nodded back, "That's a good thing."
"It is, really," he agreed. "And you know one of the best things? I do love you. You're one of my best friends."
Chloe smiled brightly at him, "I'm just glad we didn't fuck things up by entering a relationship. I'd miss you right now."
"I'd miss you, too,' Clark nodded and smiled back. "I think what we have is more lasting." He really hopes so.
"I'm sure it is, relationships always fuck things up." She grinned and hugged Clark.
"True..." he hugged back. "I like this."
Chloe nodded "it is..." she said looking up at him, "what do you wanna do now?"
"We could watch a movie or something,' Clark said. "Nothing energetic, I'm a little tired."
"Sounds like a good idea." Chloe smiled and grabbed the control from the center table before snuggling against Clark, "I'll choose."
“Go for it," he smiled and put his arm around her.